So when I started writing the first draft of my novel on 1 November I was really pumped. I had set myself the goal of writing 2000 words a day. On the first day I did about 5000 words by hand. That was a good day. I had visions of cracking my novel within a week, and spending the rest of November boasting about it, and letting strangers buy me congratulatory drinks.
The mood, sadly, did not last.
By week two I was working hard each day to make my average, and skipping writing altogether on some days. I guess the thrill had gone. More importantly, the initial excitement had worn off, and now the real work began. Working at it day after day, even when I felt no motivation, because it was something I ‘wanted’ to be doing.
When we are ‘new’ Christians, and by this I include every time we make a fresh commitment, we are usually filled with joy and determination. This time I am going to follow Jesus, all the time. Worship? Bring it on! Quiet time? I’ll take two. Bible study? Just try and stop me!
And we think it’s going to last forever. But it doesn’t, does it? Soon I’m thinking about other things all the time, and finding any excuse to get out ouf praying. I’ll sit up watching TV until late, and then say “Sorry, I’m a little tired to pray right now. Maybe tomorrow I’ll feel better.”
Well. We never feel better do we? Sometimes we just need to do it, even though we don’t feel like it. Just like I had to keep writing, because I remind myself every day that I want to be a writer, and that I want to write. I need to remind myself every day why I am doing this faith thing, and what I want to be. Otherwise I become a slave to my feelings.
Matthew 7:14 says “But the gate to life is narrow and the way that leads to it is hard, and there are few people who find it.”
121656 people started writing NaNoWriMo with me this year. Only 21 736 made it by the end of the month. What was the difference. Some people lost sight of the gate, and some strayed off the path. The rest of us did nothing special. We just kept going, even when we didn’t feel like it.
Feelings last but a moment, eternity lasts forever.